Life's little bends

Have you ever suddenly come around a corner in life, and found yourself in a whole new place? A mere few weeks ago, I did not know Brian. Never met him, never heard of him. And here I am now, beginning and ending my day with him (either on the phone or in person), and talking/emailing in between. It's no real surprise that we would fall for each other, because, after all, we have a lot in common. I mean, we both were raised Roman Catholic, neither of us fully espouses catholicism/Catholicism at this time, he went to SLU High and Undergrad, I went to SLU Undergrad and Grad, we're both sociopolitical liberals... We share movies, walks, hanging out with friends. It's therefore not all that surprising that we would like each other.

The thing is, we've lived about a mile from each other for the last seven years. So the twist in the plot is that we made contact in the first place. A further twist is the intangible connection, that which cannot be expressed neatly with words - the emotion. That which may or may not be there, even when people match well on paper, and which is so strong as to almost be tangible with Brian and me. We speak of the now and of the future. I don't feel like I've fallen down a rabbit hole, per se, as the experience is not so much bizarre and unfamiliar as unexpected. I simply turned a corner and found a prize.

This blog is dedicated to our relationship, so I feel comfortable platsching around in the schmarmy and the kitch. I can say that it is hard already to imagine my life without him. Even as I type that, it freaks me out a little because that sounds so serious, so adult, so real. But am I to deny what I'm feeling? Life is short for foolishness of that kind.

Hmmm.... can I guarantee him or myself that things will work out for us, in the long run? Of course not. But I can promise to be open and honest, and that includes saying the good, no matter how high the degree ticker gets on the schmarmometer.

Brian, I love you. There. I said it out in the open, on our blog. In "public," as it were. I hadn't declared so to the rest of the world yet; I am doing so now, officially. I know I've said it to you privately, in word and deed, but now I'm taking a stand, flying the flag, whatever. You are my big damn lovebird, and I love you. My life is richer for learning from you as well as learning with you.

Your Steady.